So yesterday's shoot was tiring... had to travel for 3 hours to get there which was bad enough then the shoot ran late had to have a wank in a freezing cold barn, not that i minded too much... a wank is a wank right?!

But got to see my friend Terry again who is seeing this awful girl and deserves so much better! She treats him like crap and he's such an amazing guy he deserves so much better and yes i kinda do mean me! We have a spark, i know he see's it but he's with her so i have to play it patient which i dont do well.

Got a mail from an old friend totally out of the blue which is crazy... used to have the biggest crush on him so if we meet up again something may happen... kinda hope it does haven't had sex (outside of work) for 2 weeks now and a girl has needs! I dunno why but since i started doing porn it's been so much harder meeting guys... or ones that meet my standards anyway!

Had a meeting today, a company wants me to start finding them models in the new year and are gunna pay me £50 a go! Sweet! Only downside was i did a quick shoot for them too and while we were shooting the solo video the guy asked me if he could have a wank! How unprofessional is that! If he wants to wank he can do it after i've left, jeez! But i'm not letting it bother me, i said no and thats that, he tries it again i'll kick him in the nuts and tell him to shove his money and work!

All in all so far so good week... got tons to do tomorrow as moving on saturday... my internet will be down till monday night! How will i survive?! I live on my laptop whenever i'm home. Grrrr!